amazingly hot video

OK. it’s a *girl* getting caned.

insanely hot video.

in other news.
twenty years. no men.
almost as repressed as
an ordinary man… or so
i guess… when any *particular*
man is at hand. one “rates”
women… and, gee, it’d be
an honor even at this late date
to fuck any particular one *of* ‘em….

and one no doubt has been rated right back.

“please spank me really really hard
until i beg get fucked and then beat me
beat me harder faster until i don’t know
my own name and know only that i *want*
you you beat me and suddenly OW! up the
ass and fuck me fuck me fuck me thank you
for smacking me so good and hard and
AHHHH!… nails on nipples… AHHH!…
my red-hot butt.”

oh please let me blow you oh choke me choke me
pain pain pain yes oh thank you more your
big growing godlike dick yes yes more pain
forever let it be forever

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i understand and i wish to continue

wordpress sites more or less
at random for all of one’s
cut-and-pasting needs.

http://glowinside.wordpress.com/

http://allforher.wordpress.com/

http://vanillaedge.wordpress.com/

http://ladyemmalyn.wordpress.com/

point being: i can comment in ‘em
when logged into wp as “spadlin”
without revealing my other ID’s
(at once; i expect any well-informed
computer-head could find ‘em out
pretty easily if they had a reason).

i’d set up a “blogger” account for
my spanko activity but they want
another phone number (or did when
last i checked) and this is just
too much damn trouble. fuck gooogle.

my very brief researches indicate
that the wp blogs tend to be,
um, wordier than the blogger stuff.

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until i couldn’t cry any more

great stills for free:
FemDom Spanking Store.

goddess and i do mostly vanilla
and of course i love it… sex
is the *only* good thing from one
perverctly reasonable point of view…

last night i went down on her: the main event.
i was “put on this earth to eat pussy” as we two
notice aloud from time to time.

i haven’t had a man… i suppose i mean
i haven’t been had *by* a man… in almost
20 years. and goddess can (and does) go
way down and stay down and i can just flail
around and fuck the living b’jeezus out of
her face and upper digestive tract as i grope
lovingly on her butt; sure. so i’m as straight
as the next guy for all that.

and as i started to say. a couple nights ago
we went for the old in=out. as we seldom do.
and it was. um. vision-inducingly, cosmos-
-shakingly, great.

lucky for us i’d beaten off three or four times
that day looking at spanko stuff… and tranny
stuff and some good old-fashioned cocksucking
[and whatnot])… online.

usually… even with a rubber…
it feels so *goddamn* good
when i get my dick up her
goddess pussy, i just cum
right away.

in fact, the rubber sometimes
makes it worse in the sense that
i’ve gotta get myself *real* worked up
to have the confidence to interrupt the
fuck-fest mood and play with the high-tech
right up against my confidence *meter*
and finally turn around and jam it
*in* her (and start to get hard again);
a second later, usually, bam! wow. goodnight.

anyhow. no domme/sub stuff in many months.
and indeed, more and more on the net i find
i’m looking for beautiful dicks and
guys-eager-to-get-fucked-like-girls
and whatnot (though heaven knows:
a shot where the top has a belt
or hairbrush or what have you can
send me right out to the oozing-cum
fuck-me-now-i-don’t-care-how-hard stage
in a fraction of a second sometimes).

oh hell. maybe tonight. that wooden spoon.
honey! please! ow! OW! aaaahhhh! aanaanahh,h,AAAAH!

… oh thank you goddess for taking such good care of me…

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i dare no longer stay

so what if i’m queer
so what if i love masturbation
above all other pleasures
when i can make it last for hours
all by myself and so what
if it’s nostalgia for being a kid
and whoa now here comes
the spanko theme again…
because it was just *natural*
that sooner or later…
but certainly within a few days…
i’d be upended barebottomed
and spanked and spanked
into complete humiliation
screaming and wet with tears.

in what vile part of this anatomy
doth my name lodge?

sez romeo. i love this video.
milo o’shea stars as the friar
in zefferelli’s immortal…
okay, i admit it’s really about
the astonishingly beautiful
olivia hussy or maybe about
rebecca anne who already
in junior high had become
a sexually active (and well-
developed) young woman
while i was alas a very very
horny boy… and this movie
was current though i never
saw it back then… and she
wasn’t the only one i drove
myself nuts about while i
lay around naked playing with
my dick in particular and
my whole skin generally.
let’s not get into the asshole stuff
or the _playboy_ magazines.

maybe i’ll ask goddess for a can’t-help-screaming beating tonight.
i know just how to do it, too… i’ll tease her for half an hour or so
with my face and hands right up near orgasm but always pulling back
just before the last second… and say not a word…

and when she’s literally begging for it, i’ll remind her
of my need for punishment and of the sexual hotness
we’ve experienced together when she’s loved me for
wanting to take such a horrible beating…

anything… *anything*!… if it proves my desire.
and if it *prolongs* my desire.

because if, god forbid, i cum. pure pain
and no horniness at all.

but i lie of course. because right away
it begins again. it’s that old will-to-live
versus hopelessness-and-despair thing.

i’m gonna go look at some porno
up here on the internet and stuff
while i… well… *you* know what.
and i’m not lonely at all.

still feeling the booze of last night.
and of course there’s some goddess-related
guilt-trip around me being in the
“juan spadlin” frame of mind at all
and alas she (who must be manipulated)
has a stated dislike for the whole
righteous-chastisement “FLR” part
of spanko kinkdom: “i’m not your mother”.

love love love. gotta pee.

ever drank it from the tap?
i have, but only a few times.
my first lover. goddess.
i forget who else.

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wet snotty bawling

all in my head these days… and i’m okay with that…
just another forbidden pleasure like doing it with a guy
or what have you. but i still come here for some great
beatoff sessions. and maybe tonight i’ll just ask,
ever so sweetly, somehow right there in the lovemaking,
for a good hard ridingcrop warmup with just maybe some
cablecord assbruiser scream-to-the-heavens *beating*.
goddess always loves how i go down afterwards, too.
mmm, mmm, mmm.

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thank you ma’am

right on the same spots over and over
with the wooden spoon leaving two
red circles against almost-untouched
white on my well-fucked bottom.
then i got to go down. heaven.

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poor me

ma’am doesn’t get thrills from spanking me
and i don’t know how to go about asking her
without wrecking the general mood of
oh-how-we-love-each-other…

so i haven’t had any spanko action for,
i guess, a few months. and of course
i’m okay with it. we *do* love each other
and i’m about as content with the situation
as i’ve ever been, day-to-day and
year-to-year. we do a lot of oral
and it’s amazing. still i’d love to
get beaten to tears and assfucked
good and hard.

thank g-d for internet porn.

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“owing owen”

magazine reprint.

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tears of gratitude

a very thorough beating a few days ago
with the crop and both bedroom cables.
lots of loopy marks all over my left side
from the butt down and plenty of screaming.
ma’am reports that she felt some satisfaction
from *inflicting* the pain. she’d recently had
reasons to be angry with me and she felt that
giving me this horrible wonderful spanking
helped her to let some of it out. afterward
i was glowing with contentment. and got
some rough dildo action too before going down.
but that was sex because we’re lovers.
the beating was pain because it’s good for me.
i’m thrilled that it’s sometimes also good for ma’am.

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mistress begins to enjoy the view from the top. not particularly arousing necessarily but kind of fun sometimes after all. her loving submissive is thrilled and cherishes this thought.

kneeling on the floor
but after just a few blows
flat on the rug scratchy
on belly and nipples
not that i notice much
as the crop comes down
fast and hard…
mostly on my screaming butt
but also with extra-stingy
blows on my back and legs
whenever i begin to find
a regular breathing pattern
to accomodate my cries
and writhings. oh baby
i’m so grateful. and at
the end when finally
i *do* get my breath
and i can look up
at you crop in hand
i can’t stop smiling
and the contentment
flows into me like
water filling a glass.

and a few days later on the bed
with no warmup at all just SLASH
right across the butt with the crop
again your favorite now i’m sure
thank you thank you for using it
i picked it just for you and
nobody takes better care of me
or ever did or ever could and
AAAAAH! and you standing there
strong and stable on the bed side
and when i’m just about humbled
walking around to the other side
to even things out and i know
i’m really in trouble. i love you
so much honey. thank you again
and again.

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